Why?

I just spent about an hour throwing up absolutely everything in my stomach.

And then some more.

I just couldn't stop.

Eye make up smeared across my face, groaning in agony as I felt the back of my throat tear slightly, and felt my body convulse as i pushed my hand further and further.

I kept going, until I just dry heaved.

Then I curled into a ball, sobbing, on the bathroom floor, with acid burning in my throat and tears in my eyes.

I hate this. It's hell.